Episode Transcript
Speaker 1 00:00:08 Well, guys, we're back. We are back. Well, I'm back. This is the new and improved podcast, chaos and Clarity with yours, truly, Harrison Marks. Uh, it's been a minute, it's been a minute. It's been a little rough trying to get this thing back together. I didn't want, I told you I was gonna be back and I'm back. But, uh, it took, took a little while to get everything off the ground and running. Last episode of Acting Up was in, I think it was in like May 16th or something like that. It's June 20, a little over a month ago. A month and a half almost. But, um, after some time of, you know, thinking and, and just figuring out what the next move is, uh, this name kind of stuck with me. I was like, all right, this sounds cool. Kind of hit all the, um, all the markers and shit and, uh, of, of like, me as a person.
Speaker 1 00:01:10 I, to be honest, I don't fucking know. I just, it sounded cool and it kind of, I guess, gets the point across. And, um, but yeah, it's been a, it's been a couple last month or so, has been pretty fucking wild. Uh, we're back in New York, New York City. That's where we're recording from right now. And, uh, yeah, it's been, it's been quite the ride. Um, where, where do I start? Where should I start? Should I start with, I mean, I guess where we left you off with was Essen, uh, left the show. I should give you a little bit of an explanation about it. Um, there was no fight. There's no bad blood, but he, uh, he just wanted to, he, he didn't, his heart wasn't in this. And I totally get that the same way that I haven't been like acting the way that I, uh, I, I haven't pursued acting the same way that, that I, I used to.
Speaker 1 00:02:02 Um, you know, it's sometimes you just, some things are not for you. And, uh, I still do acting, but the Podcasting's not for sing. And, uh, I, I really enjoy this shit. I just enjoy being an asshole and, and talking shit. And, um, which just goes to show you, there's something definitely, definitely a little off with me. Um, either that or I'm a raging fucking narcissist. I, but um, yeah, so we kinda left it off that way and he was like, yo, take it over. And I really didn't know what to do. I didn't know whether to have somebody on or, um, whether I should, you know, do it myself all the time, which was a terrible idea. Um, this is just sort of giving you a guys a little pre, this is like, um, me flashing my tits. If I was on only fans, like right before I, I tell you that next week we're gonna bang like seven black dudes.
Speaker 1 00:02:51 Um, so it's just me this week, just, you know, touching myself. Uh, but yeah, so that's where we're at now. And like, I figured, let me just reintroduce this thing and remember how the fuck to even do this, cuz I mean, not that I ever knew what I was doing, but whatever. Um, so when Essin ended up, you know, doing his own thing, uh, and he's actually coming back from a show from Florida, uh, today, I think is like, he had, he's supposed to fly in yesterday. His flight got canceled and then he had the state hotel, and then his flight to DC where he was gonna go from Atlanta to dc then DC to New York also got canceled. So now he is, uh, he's driving home, uh, which kind of makes me a little, a little happy because it's kind of funny. Um, but yeah, so he had left and then after that I kind of took some time to do a little soul searching. And, uh, I ended up in Arizona for a bachelor party.
Speaker 1 00:03:49 You know, I'll tell you ma'am, Arizona, I didn't expect to like it as much as I did. It's a, it's an interesting place. It's not, you know, I don't think it's a place I'd ever wanna live full time. But the people were super cool. The people were super cool in Scottsdale particularly. Um, I had a really, everyone was just, was super chill and everyone treated us really nicely and, um, it just was a, a really, a really dope place. Yeah, I met my first Mormon, I, first time I ever met a Mormon, uh, was in Arizona, so I could scratch that off the bucket list. I, uh, and I'm such a dumbass, I thought, I was like, don't you guys believe in like, aliens and shit? And I realized that that's, uh, it's Scientology. Yeah, I fucked it up. I fucked it up. But nonetheless, she was a beautiful woman, really nice girl.
Speaker 1 00:04:36 Um, you know, made a, made a cool friend out there. And, uh, I, I will say that if Mormons were, you know, if they sent out Mormons who looked like her, then I think people, like, if they knocked on people's doors with her, they probably would get more, more people joining the, the religion I think. But I could be wrong. Um, but yeah, we were out there and had a really nice time and I was with all my buddies that I grew up with, and it was the first time seeing them, not the first time I actually had seen them in April, but we were all together and we were having just a blast. And, uh, I think it, it kind of made me, made me realize that I, I missed home a lot. I really missed home and I missed, uh, I missed my people and my lease.
Speaker 1 00:05:29 I'm trying to figure out how much I'm gonna, I wanna let go of here, you know, cuz this is, this is a lot of information. Oh shit, what should I do? What should I do? Well, well, my lease was coming due and I, uh, I decided that I don't know if I wanna be in California anymore. And I decided to take some time and, and, you know, spend some time in New York. And that's what I'm doing, spending my summer here, you know, rediscovering myself a little bit. Um, yeah, LA Man LA is such a, it's such a weird fucking place. I talk about it all the time, and I've said it on many episodes, but it, it's like this bizarre fucking planet that you land on where people are not only narcissistic, but there's this, I don't know how to this eeriness. I'm not a claustrophobic dude.
Speaker 1 00:06:33 And, and claustrophobia, I understand the definition of it is, you know, fearing fear of small places, type places. I was getting claustrophobic with how much space I had, and that was the part that fucking like, really creeped me out. I, I, I just, I felt like the walls were closing in even though I had more space. Does that make any sense? You know, it, it, it was, it just was eerie and everybody seemed to just be a little lifeless and, and I met some really good people. There was, uh, there's a group of people that I met out there that are really, really cool people. Uh, and I, I'm still in contact with them. You know, people like, you know, Jackie over at Ivana Chubb studio and, um, you know, Stephanie and Lydia and all these, these wonderful archer, uh, fucking Jessica. And, and, and everybody.
Speaker 1 00:07:23 I get, I I, there's a bunch of people and Shawn, Shawn most importantly, I fucking love you, Shawn. You are, without you, LA would've fucking sucked. Um, but these people that I met, that they're good people there, but for the most part, it's just this, I feel like everyone was probed, you know, with some, with like a giant TikTok dildo and, and, and everyone's on autopilot of, of how do I be a star? How do I be a star? And I get that that's what people are there for, but it's not for me. It's just not fucking for me. I, I, I couldn't, I felt like I was losing my mind there. Um, so I got the fuck outta Dodge and I'm back in the big motherfucking city bitches. And, uh, I'll tell you the second I got back in New York, excuse me, I have allergies, which I've never fucking had.
Speaker 1 00:08:14 Allergies are the most ridiculous thing ever. I never in my life have had them. And I feel so bad for shitting on people who had them before because I understand their pain now. It is absolutely horrifying. I don't feel sick, but I can't breathe and I can't see. And I, I just, I, yeah, it, it's awful. I made fun of a lot of people for that. And I feel like shit, I'm getting, this is my karma, my fucking karma. But, um, yeah, the second I landed back in New York, I just felt, I don't know this sense of, of relief, it felt better. It felt w I mean, I guess cuz it's what I'm familiar with and I'm not a guy that likes to go into the comfortable zone because if you, the more you live in the comfort, the more you're gonna fucking just rot away your muscles and your soul just fucking atrophies when you are, when you're living in the comfort.
Speaker 1 00:09:08 But I know how to operate here. I enjoy operating here more. I, I don't mind struggling more here. It's just the jungle that I know. Like, I know where the good fruits are. I know where the good trees are. I know where, you know, and I, and I always am finding new, new ones. You know, I'm, I'm, I'm on the hunt more here. Uh, whereas LA I just was like, oh, the, the apartment is really nice and I can, I could sit in and, you know, tomorrow it's gonna be sunny tomorrow and the day after that. So why enjoy it today when I could just do it any other day. It's that fucking tomorrow effect, you know? But, um, yeah, when I got back, man, it's fucking, like, the city was just this pulse, just, I could feel it. I, I felt like my, just like my kegel muscle was just pulsing.
Speaker 1 00:09:58 It was amazing. And, um, yeah, just, uh, it's where I, where I belong, you know? And sure in LA like being a New Yorker, at least in my experience, everyone was like, I, I really sort of stuck out and I don't know how much I enjoy sticking out, kind of like to blend. Um, but not, if you're, if you're that kind of vibe, then, then, then maybe that's the place for you to just where you can sort of stick out. But I don't know, I, I like to, to blend in with the characters. I like being around characters. Nine times outta 10, the characters in LA are someone that's fucking, you know, lost their mind completely. Or someone who's trying to be a star and gonna lose their mind completely because they're probably not gonna make it. And that's just the fucking truth. But, um, yeah, but being back in New York, man, I, I will say, uh, I've been, I've been a bad boy.
Speaker 1 00:10:55 I've been a bad boy lately. I have been, uh, I've been working a little bit, you know, doing my, my survival shit. But the weekends, man, they have been fucking rough. They've been rough. I've been, I've been drinking, I've been going out a lot. And it's great. It's great. But I think I'm starting to feel it a little bit. I'm like, okay, you need to take it easy, pal. You need to fucking stay in this weekend. You're not gonna miss much. And just dial down on the FOMO a little bit and the fucking wildness, because I've been, I guess it's, cuz you know, I'm back. I'm back. It's, that's the feeling. I maybe I just sounds like a alcoholic trying to, you know, justify his, his, you know, oh no, I'm good. I'm just, I'm just having fun. I'm having fun. Um, but I, I've been pushing it, I've been pushing a little bit, sleeping a little less.
Speaker 1 00:11:54 But, um, I guess that's what you do. And my friends are like, oh, you're back home. You're back home. You, you're just enjoying yourself. And it's like, when I've been back home for three weeks, when, when do we stop celebrating? You know, like, your birthday was, your birthday was last month. It's, it's over. Like I think it's time. I think it's time to stop celebrating, right? Uh, I hate those fucking people that celebrate their birthday for a whole month. It's like, who the fuck are you? Who the fuck are you the fucking queen of England? Like, you're celebrating your, I don't know, I never understood that. A weekend I get, I get celebrating your birthday for a week weekend. If it's on like a Thursday, Friday, Friday and Saturday are yours. Thursday, Friday, Saturday are yours, Sunday, eh, don't, don't inconvenience anybody. But, or if it's on in the middle of the weekend, that weekend's yours.
Speaker 1 00:12:41 If your birthday's on a Monday, the weekend coming, the weekend after that, it's yours. I think, I think I could be wrong, but yeah. Uh, speaking of birthdays, I'm gonna be fucking 30 this year. It's crazy, fucking crazy. But then I got six months for that. Um, but yeah, so now I'm back here. I'm trying to get this podcast going again. I don't know who the fuck is gonna come on after, uh, you know, whenever. But, um, you know, when you leave somewhere, I've been, I was in LA for a year and, you know, bailing sort of, I guess you can say bailing, you have a, there's a little moment where you start to think to yourself, I wouldn't say start to think, but fuck, you have this little voice in your head where you go, Ooh, did I fail? Did I fail on this mission?
Speaker 1 00:13:38 This mission that I didn't exactly think through? A hundred percent did I fuck up? You know, am I, and I've failed before. I, I think failure is, is is really important in, you know, in life. I've learned more from my failures than my successes. And I haven't had a whole lot of successes, but I've had a lot of failure. And, uh, it's changed me, it's changed me. It's made me a little way more humble way, way smarter way. We, it also gives you an opportunity to take more risks. Like, Hey, I failed before. Like, let's go. What's the worst that can happen? I'll get back up on my fucking feet and dust myself off. But that little voice comes in again and, uh, you, you think you're like, shit, did I, did I fail? Um, but I really don't think so. I don't think so, because the real failure is to never have tried it all.
Speaker 1 00:14:32 I did what I wanted. I, I moved somewhere. I live somewhere else. And who knows? Like I said, I'm taking some time right now. But, you know, I think a lot of people feel this way. It's why I'm, I'm kind of doing this podcast alone just cuz I've had so much shit on my head where you wonder, you know, everyone's always concerned about failing, especially with, with TikTok and Instagram and watching fucking nine year olds, you know, win awards and make millions of dollars. You start to feel very small. And I've never given a fuck about what anyone's thought about me, ever, ever. And it's been my greatest asset. But I do care very much about what I think of me, and that's important. And I have to reflect on that. And, and my opinion of myself is, is pinnacle. So I've had some time to reflect and, and you know, I think a lot of people do that where they go, shit, what this is, did I, did I bail?
Speaker 1 00:15:39 Did I, was it a success? Was it a failure? Was it, you know, I think even forgetting either, if it's a learning experience, then it's the most important thing, you know, which it was. I learned, I learned so much about myself living away from New York City. I just thought, um, you know, I learned to be a little more patient. I learned to, to take my time a little bit. I learned that what I, the things I really don't like and things I really do like more don't like, the more you know, you don't like, I like to weed out the things I don't like and then figure out what I do. Like, you know, that, that kind of, that's when I know what I don't like. I can, it's a smaller pool cuz I don't like a lot of shit. You know? It, it just makes life way fucking easier.
Speaker 1 00:16:30 Um, but yeah, so I, I I learned that I learned to be more patient, a little more, I guess easy. I don't know how to explain it. I've just, it was a weird year. It was a weird year. I was in Oklahoma, I was in Oregon, and then I lived in LA and it was like I was fucking cops. Jesus, Brooklyn, um, if, I don't know if you guys heard the sirens, but there were sirens, you know, uh, I never went to sleep away camp. I never went away to college. The longest I ever went away from New York City was probably a fucking week, no, two weeks. And at 28 years old, I picked up and just fucking bounced. And it was new for me. This was all, maybe I'm a late, I mean, in certain areas I'm a late bloomer in certain areas. I did things way too fucking early.
Speaker 1 00:17:28 Drugs, sex way too fucking early, leaving home way too fucking late. But luckily I was able to do it in my twenties. And yeah, this was that experience for me. The experience people usually have when they're fucking 20, 21. I had a 28 and it was a wild time. You know, I learned so much about myself and anybody who hasn't left home, uh, or has, if you don't have, if you don't want to, then, then don't, you know, fine. It's, it's your life. I'm not here to tell anybody what the fuck to do. Um, but I, it's pretty fucking awesome and cool. You learn a lot about yourself when your back's against the wall. And I didn't have anybody helping me either. So it was, it was kind of wild, um, as far as family and ship. But I think I also learned that I really, in times of extreme anxiety, I had no clue what I was gonna do.
Speaker 1 00:18:33 No clue. And one way or another, I fucking figured it out. I don't know how, and I wouldn't say figured it out, like I knew all the answers, but I made it through that day. And then I made it through the next day. And yeah, I, i, I learned how to guess survive. I mean, look, I wasn't eating outta trash cans like a fucking, you know, like I, I came in off a boat in at 1908, so, and I know how to speak English, so I, I got it pretty fucking easy. But yeah, I learned, I learned a lot, man. I learned a lot about myself. I learned what I like, I, I learned, I learned what, what, what, what I'm like when there's a lot of pressure, I, you know, I bend, but I, I haven't broken yet. And, uh, yeah, so like coming back here, I'm back in the neighborhood that I grew up in.
Speaker 1 00:19:26 You, you kind of look at the place a little differently and I, you know, actually I was walking down the street and I saw an old character. He is like, one of the, he's like mentally he's retarded, dude. Um, that I used to see all the time as a kid. And I, I saw him walking today and he got fucking old man. He's like, he's like in his forties now. And, uh, it's just interesting how some characters never leave and I don't plan on staying here for very much longer. Um, but it's just interesting that the neighborhood doesn't change for the most part when you leave, but you do and you look around and you go, shit, this is not where I belong. You know, that I'm talking specifically like in the small neighborhood you grew up in New York City is where I belong. But if I didn't leave, how do you really know that?
Speaker 1 00:20:18 You know, I think I knew a little bit growing up, you know, before I had left, when I moved to other areas in Brooklyn, in New York City, I went, yeah, yeah, yeah. Where I grew up. Like Sheephead Bay is not for me anymore, but when you come back after living like 3000 miles away, you go, wow, holy shit. Like I'm, yeah. And, uh, it'll always be home, but it just looks different now. But, um, yeah, you have this, I also, I'm in a, I'm kind of just not sure right now. I'm just unsure of everything. I always have been, I guess as a kid didn't know what I wanted to major in, didn't know what the fuck I wanted to do, didn't know anything. I had no fucking clue. Everyone knew that, oh, Harrison was just kind of floating. Um, I always knew I wanted to entertain and, and do acting or comedy or shit like that. But any, everything else is, I don't know, you know, I've been asking myself this question of, you know, what do I want? Like what do I want outta life?
Speaker 1 00:21:35 And, um, the only answer I could come up with, which may be the most fucking pathetic thing or the nicest thing, I don't know, I don't know how to don't know, is I just wanna laugh. I just wanna spend my life laughing every moment I can. And I know that that's not possible. There's gonna be people who die and tragedies that happen, and really shitty days where I'm pissed off and angry and upset and, you know, but I, with every other moment, I hope that I could just find those in between moments of laughter and just bullshit, you know, giggle and stuff. And uh, like right now when I have a moment where I'm feeling a little down, I'll, I'll try to smile and like, oh, it makes me so fucking nauseous that I'm saying this because I'm not, I've never been that guy and I'm not that guy.
Speaker 1 00:22:37 I'm me. I'm fucking me. But I, uh, I'm smiling and it helps, it helps. I, I find the, the ease in the situation. Like, it's not that serious. Whatever it is, it's sad. Whatever. It's okay. Maybe, and maybe it's cuz I'm a little older, you know, as a kid I used to wallow in the misery and I, I just can't, I don't have the energy. I don't wanna fucking feel like shit. Even when I have moments of, I just don't know. I don't know what's going on. Um, yeah, I don't wanna, I don't wanna feel like shit, I'd like to laugh. I'd like to have a good time. I have such a hard time right now having serious conversations with people, uh, which is probably exhausting for most people. Cuz I'm always talking about nonsense, you know? Uh, yeah, yeah. I'm always looking to just, just talk about bullshit, talk about the things that make someone uncomfortable.
Speaker 1 00:23:31 And that's, I think what this podcast is also this improved version, I guess it was always, you know, a little uncomfortable I think for most people. Um, but I think now Essin was always there to sort of tame me and I'm gonna end up saying some dumb shit, like always. And now it's kind of, no one's there to, to sort of help me out and I gotta sort of navigate it. And I don't think I'm gonna stop myself. I think I'm just gonna go where my gut is telling me I, because, you know, see meeting people in other states, like, like in Arizona, um, and LA and fucking everywhere I've been for the last year, especially recently, like Arizona, when you're nothing but yourself and, and LA is, that's one thing LA gave me. I'm like, I am not going to act like I'm somebody else.
Speaker 1 00:24:25 I did for a long time, not act like someone else, but sort of just, just clean, polish myself up just, just to touch more than a touch. But I got tired of it. I'm like, yo, I don't wanna fucking, this is who I am. I'm a little inappropriate. I say stupid things. I'm not gonna do it, you know, at a fucking, uh, you know, if I'm invited to the White House and start using the word, you know, dicks and assholes and pussies, I'm gonna be, you know, the setting. I know, understand the setting, but for the most part, I'm not in those settings. I'm in a setting where I'm around normal, normal people who are, where you're able to crack jokes. And I don't want to have the conversation of, oh, well what do you do for a living? Oh, what do you do for a living?
Speaker 1 00:25:05 That's great. Oh, well, congratulations. Oh, did you see the football game? Fuck that. I say inappropriate shit sometimes. And that's just who I am. And honestly, the more I've been doing it, and the more I've just been getting down to the nitty gritty of even like, what do you do? Okay, are you happy doing that? Like, are you, is that what you wanna be doing? I ask that people now, I ask that to a lot of people and it just kind of cuts through the fucking diarrhea nonsense of conversation. Just the get the, the, the fucking explosive shit out, just out. And I've been, I just, I want to know who the fuck you are. You don't have to tell me your social security number and you know, every little bullshit, you know, like your most deep dark secrets about Father John at the fucking church touching you when you were a kid, which, if you wanna tell me I'm your guy, I'll be more than happy to listen.
Speaker 1 00:25:57 I don't get freaked out by much. But in my, in my travels of of, of going around and being myself over this last year and just unapologetically I've noticed people communicate with me better. I'm able to connect with people better. I'm able to see a person in front of me, and I'm able to show them that I'm just as flawed and fucked up as you. And I loved it. Like, I love it. I'm telling you, I met people for three days in Arizona that I'm like, wow, you're a person, you're a living, breathing person. I met people in la like Shawn for example. We met, we had one drink and we just fucking, there was no bullshit. We were like, wow, you're real. I'm real. We could just be humans together. We don't have to like worry about, oh, what's your political party? Or, oh, I wonder how he's gonna feel if I say that.
Speaker 1 00:26:51 You know? And nothing that I say is of any, is not bigoted or, or, uh, uh, hateful. Um, yeah, I make jokes that are fucking dumb. And once you get to understand me, we could, if you get, you can get to know me in 30 minutes and go, okay, I understand where this guy is. He's decent. You know, I just wanna connect with people. And I think this podcast is, we were doing that before and we're gonna continue doing that. I'm gonna continue doing that of being able to just say, Hey, we're real. This is, let's have a real fucking conversation. No bullshit. Make some stupid jokes. Say some crazy shit. Not worry about what anybody's gonna think about you. I don't judge who the fuck cares. You know, let's have a real conversation. And I think people want to hear that. And that's what I mean, that's what I wanna hear.
Speaker 1 00:27:44 I don't give a fuck if you don't wanna hear it or not, don't listen. It's fine. No one barely any listen. No, barely anyone listens to this shit. Anyway. So that's the goal, I think, and that's what I've been after. And that's my whole mission right now is to just have a real connection with someone. Be honest, have a good joke, have a good sense of humor, loosen the fuck up. Life is short, man, we're gonna be dead. We're gonna be fucking dead. And I don't wanna waste another moment on being miserable or lying about how I feel or having to shut myself up because it's gonna hurt your feelings rather than just understanding that we have a difference of opinion. We could still have a beer and we could still chill. I just want to cut through the bullshit.
Speaker 1 00:28:27 And I think being back in New York after, you know, traveling around and connecting with people who are not from my home and realizing, oh shit, you know, this is not a, a geographical thing. You can connect with anybody if you just really are authentically yourself, someone will be like, oh, I get, I can, I can show them myself too, you know? That's it. I I just, I just wanna stop beating around the bush, dude. Oh my God, that was a rant, man. That was a fucking rant. I really didn't think I'd be talking this much. I thought I I wasn't gonna have much to say, honestly. Yeah, well, holy fuck, man. But I, I hope that people tune in. I hope people listen. If they don't, it's okay once it's out. Once I record this shit, it's outta my hands. How you feel about it is none of my concern.
Speaker 1 00:29:27 Either you like it or you don't like it and don't like it. It's just as fine as liking it. It's the indifference that I have a fucking problem with. But, um, yeah, I'm, I'm just really trying to do me, I don't know, I don't know where I'm at personally, you know, but figuring that shit out, man. I guess that's the point, is to never really know, just to keep on trying to figure it out. You know, I've had moments where I was completely lost. I wouldn't say I'm completely lost right now, but I would say that I, I guess my whole life has been that way where I've just kind of been, all right, let's see what, let's see what's, what's up? You know, don't really know. I don't understand how people are convinced who, who just know themselves. Like, yeah, I know me. Like, how, how do you know you, you two minutes ago is different than you now, so who the fuck are you?
Speaker 1 00:30:21 You know? Cuz I sure as fuck, I don't know me, I know my morals. I think if you keep your morals and ethics in check of, like, I don't wanna hurt you. Uh, I have no intention of trying to, if I ha I will hurt people, I don't know, you know, you know, in certain situations unintentionally. And if you try to just be a decent dude, don't fucking don't hurt anybody. If you do acknowledge it, apologize. You know, in relationships people get hurt, shit like that. I don't mean physically beat the shit outta somebody, cuz that, I mean, unless they fucking, you know, unless they try to hit you, that's different. Then you have the right to, you know, hit somebody with a hammer. But yeah. Yeah. Well, I guess that's where I'm at. Oh, also, the one thing that did happen recently has nothing to do with me, with the Titanic.
Speaker 1 00:31:13 Those dumb motherfuckers, man, I feel bad. The only one I feel bad for is the kid, the he who wanted to solve like the Rubik's Cube puzzle at like 3,900 meters below surface. I'll be honest with you, man, I don't know, maybe, uh, maybe I'm an asshole, but what a dream man. What a dream. I had dreams of, you know, uh, you know, making movies and, and being a comedian. And, but this guy wanted to, it was so simple. He just wanted to solve a Rubik's cubit below sea level. And, uh, wow. That's, if my kid told me that, I think I, I'd be like, all right, he's probably on the spectrum a little bit. He's gotta be, he's gotta be who the fuck, who <laugh> who dreams of that? Who dreams of wanting, I wanna break in his world record. You could break any world record you want.
Speaker 1 00:32:02 There's ones that are really probably not that bad or not that hard, but this is the one, this is the specific one he wanted to break apparently. But, um, all the other guys who died on that thing, sure. It's, it's, it sucks. People are dying and shit. But, uh, you know what? They knew it was unsafe. The guy who fucking did this thing, it, he, he, everyone told him, he fucking f uh, fudged the, the tests for the submarine, please. All right, please you. They, they all got what was coming to them. I hate to say it, but you fucking knew better. You guys just, this is how, this is how, you know, fucking human beings are just dumb. You, you, you're able to make billions of dollars. You're not stupid people, but the common sense, the hubris is just totally fucked, totally fucked. How, how does that happen?
Speaker 1 00:32:51 Oh my God. Like this. That's what we do. We bite our nose up. We think we can control everything. And that's what with ai, all this shit, I can go on and on. We, we think we can control, but we are fucked. We are so stupid. Nature is so much bigger than us. Wake up who you, like everyone was telling, everyone knew that it wasn't safe. It was so avoidable, so avoidable. And honestly, it w I mean, I know that the, the fucking submarine imploded, but I kind of wish it didn't. And they had like the three days in there because it would've been a really funny movie to see to make. Like they were stuck in the submarine for three to four days or whatever. And I just, the smell of five dudes in this thing, just them shitting and sweating in this thing <laugh>, like the what a way to go, what a way to die.
Speaker 1 00:33:48 The way they died was better. But imagine just piss and shit in this submarine. It's so disgusting. I know I'm grossing you out, but it would've been, it would've been very funny. I just thought that was the first thing I thought of. I was like, oh, you know. But, um, yeah, submarine, oh, there was also a dude I, I saw, I read today who died. This is how I'm gonna die. He, he died because he, she was in Jamaica. He's from the United Kingdom, went to Jamaica and he tried all 21 cocktails on the resort menu, I think one after another and died 100%. My hero. That guy was, uh, he took one for the team. Uh, if he didn't do it, I would've done it for sure. There's no way. I mean, that guy's a fucking legend for that. Like, you know what, I respect it.
Speaker 1 00:34:40 I respect it. Um, but you have to be, I would love to see the look on his wife's face when he told her that was his dream. Like he didn't wanna solve a Rubik's cube. He wanted to get so obliterated drunk in Jamaica and let everybody back in the UK know that he had every garbage cocktail on this resort. But yeah, that to me is a more feasible dream and not feasible, but, uh, that dream makes sense. The Rubik's Cube one, no, no. Even David Goggin's pushups record, not pushups, pull up record makes like I, I can understand wanting to do that before the Rubik's cube below sea level.
Speaker 1 00:35:21 But yeah, I mean, yo, they got, look, this is the, I'll give you another example of dumb white people trying to do shit that nature won't allow. Like, you know, Jack in the Titanic, he fucking died too. He thought he would've been, he, he, he was dumb. He let it happen. He let Rose have the fucking door. He got what was coming to him, you know, he could have fit, but he didn't. He was like, oh, I'll be good. I'll be good. No, I'm not gonna die. I'll be, I'll be good. I'll be good. Look what happened, bro. Look what happened. I, ugh. But anyway, I probably should cut this short. I don't even know how long I've been doing this. I feel bad that people have to listen to just my voice, but I'm back. The podcast is back. I don't know when we're gonna be releasing daily.
Speaker 1 00:36:06 It may not be on Tuesdays anymore. I don't fucking know. I'm just kind of going with it. I'm gonna keep doing weeklies and I hope you guys enjoyed this. I hope that, you know, this gives you some sort of little fucking nuggets of something, inspiration, whatever. I don't know. Um, to all my people in LA I love you. All my people in New York, I'm fucking back baby. And all my people in Arizona probably don't remember me, but you were great. Yeah. All right. This is chaos and clarity with Harrison Marks in New York City, motherfucker, we're back. You have a lovely, lovely evening motherfucker.
