Episode Transcript
[00:00:14] All right, we're back.
[00:00:16] I don't even know what episode this is, but I'm alone today. Just wanted to do this one alone. It's been, it's been a minute.
[00:00:24] And I had a bit of a weekend, you know, actually, I'll get into that after.
[00:00:30] I wanted to talk about something specific. I had watched a video today and I saw it was this dude talking about Rick and Morty. And there was a line in the show, and I don't watch the show. I've been told by, by someone that I should really see it. And it's, it's supposed to be really good.
[00:00:49] And I've heard, I've actually heard multiple people say that it's a really good show, but I just, I've never actually watched it yet, but now I really want to.
[00:00:58] The line in the show was, your booze mean nothing to me.
[00:01:04] I've heard what you people cheer for.
[00:01:08] And that to me was like, I don't know why, just fucking. Maybe because I was booed in front of people before, but it just blew me away. I'm like, holy shit.
[00:01:19] That's a such an interesting way to look at it where like, you guys don't know jack shit. And I always tried to live my life like that. I think more people, I mean, not that I should be the judge of how to live. To live or not live your life, because I really don't know what the right way is.
[00:01:36] Except being a good person, that's the only thing I've come to, at least.
[00:01:41] But to just kind of just go, you, you don't know. You don't understand what's happening right now. Like you're tasting this food before I finished making it, you know, or maybe you've only eaten, you know, Indian food your whole life and you have yet to try Greek food. And that's why when you taste it, you go, this isn't for me. Or you go, I don't like this. Not this isn't for me. This isn't for me would be a proper way to respond to it because that means you'd be a little more open to like having your palate messed with.
[00:02:13] Whereas to go like, ew, no, it just shows how close minded you you could be, you know, And I just, it made me like reassured me that when you're just doing your thing and you really believe in it, it's honesty is what people crave, you know, I really think it is.
[00:02:38] At least the people who want to make something worthwhile doing, you know, worthwhile Talking about worthwhile trying to get the shit kicked out of you to do.
[00:02:46] Because honesty is, it's like when you, when you see great acting, you know it. Like there's honesty. When you see a great performance, you just know that there's honesty. Like, that's what connects you. You don't, you don't know it, but you go, wow, that was really good. And you don't know why because most of the time it was just honest.
[00:03:07] So I think the people who, who really matter when you're making something are the ones who want the honest opinion. They want the honest, you know, ingredients.
[00:03:20] Because that's just, that's everything.
[00:03:23] It's everything. Authenticity.
[00:03:26] And there are some people who just, they can't handle it. They'd rather get a fabricated version of something because it will keep them in their box where they think they belong, where their parents made them think they belong, or where their priest or their, you know, their school teacher or their husband or wife or whatever.
[00:03:46] And they think, yeah, this is good. This is a safe place. It's not too crazy because, you know, we don't want to get overboard now. We don't want to end up in a place where I question the things that I believe.
[00:03:56] Why not? You know, why not question it?
[00:03:59] Why not go what the.
[00:04:01] Why this way? You know, the way that I've been taught by everybody. Why not?
[00:04:06] Because maybe those people don't know what the. They're doing either, you know, and you'd hope that your loved ones who've shown you like this, this is the way you should live are just trying to do the right thing for you. The, the, the. To keep you going in society, to keep you from, from being, you know, absolutely just torn apart.
[00:04:26] But you have to question it. You have to ask them and like, you have to wonder, like, maybe the way my parents did things was just fucking wrong.
[00:04:35] And sometimes it is.
[00:04:40] You know, I've, I've the way, and I love my parents deeply, but the way that they handled shit sometimes was just fucking wrong. It wasn't, it's not the way I would have done it, at least wrong. To me, it just wasn't. Wouldn't be the way I'd do it. And maybe they needed to get it wrong for me to get it right, you know, or maybe I'm not going to get it right, but I'll go in the other direction and get it wrong and find out the hard way. I'd rather that, you know, I think that's.
[00:05:09] It's beneficial. Like maybe, maybe so that's. Maybe that's what it is. Maybe the. And if you don't question their way, then you don't know what's right or wrong. You really don't. How can you know right if you don't know wrong? How can you know wrong if you don't know right?
[00:05:26] So it's really important to take a step back and try to just be fearless with your movements of how you maneuver in the world, you know.
[00:05:42] You know, someone said to me the other day, they were like, you.
[00:05:45] You don't care what strangers think. You're really like, just carefree in that world, but you're really sensitive with loved ones.
[00:05:55] And it's true.
[00:05:57] I don't know what's better to be more careful about what strangers think. More care, you know, I don't know what the right way to live is, but that's the way I've always lived. I feel like it makes more sense to me.
[00:06:08] I think what happens is when you care less about the strangers, you're not, quote, unquote, loved by as many people or liked or found, you know, found to be consumable by everybody. And that sometimes can tear people apart.
[00:06:28] They'd rather be consumed by everyone a little bit than, you know, you know, than just, you know, being fully tolerated by a small group of people.
[00:06:40] Am I making any sense? Maybe I'm talking in circles, I don't know, but it just makes sense to me to not care what, what people, you know, what strangers think about me.
[00:06:55] You know, I see it'll happen, and I've probably spoken about this already.
[00:06:59] I see people going like, oh, you know, I wonder if they'll like this. Like, maybe I shouldn't say that. Maybe I should do this.
[00:07:06] Who cares? Who the fuck cares? You know, you got to look at yourself in the mirror at the end of the day and go, did I do what I wanted to do?
[00:07:13] Yeah. May it upset people, you know, being honest. I saw in that same video, the Rick and Morty video, being honest but controversial. That's the problem.
[00:07:24] Most of the times being honest is. Is controversial. People don't fucking. They. It makes them feel a certain kind of way. And it's like, well, maybe I should give the people what they want.
[00:07:32] And I'm talking on a creative endeavor, even in a personal endeavor, like in your relationships. Maybe if I just, you know, feed them the, the, the. The, you know, the treat that they. That I know that they'll be okay with right now. But then, you know, my relationship with these people will never Be real, you know, whether it's with the audience or with your wife, like, let me just give them this now, and then we'll worry about, like, whether they'll like me later on down the road. But this is the easy way out. I think that is a trap and a recipe for disaster.
[00:08:01] If you just give it as it is, right straight up forward, you can nip any.
[00:08:09] Any problems or any sort of roadblock in. In the butt right there.
[00:08:17] Just be honest. It may upset people, but in the long run, you'll be saving yourself a ton of trouble and a ton of time.
[00:08:27] I just.
[00:08:30] I don't know.
[00:08:32] People are afraid that word, controversial.
[00:08:36] It's like when you put honest and controversial together, all people hear is controversial. They don't hear that someone's being honest.
[00:08:48] And I don't. I don't understand it. I don't understand how.
[00:08:52] How people don't want more of the honesty.
[00:08:55] Talking in fucking circles here, I think. But I don't know. I've been thinking about that a lot lately, and I've been thinking about.
[00:09:06] There's another thing I wanted to talk about was, you know, when you feel like you're destined for something, when you feel like, you know, this is my path, this is my destiny, I need to do this job.
[00:09:18] And I don't know why I asked myself this the other day, but if you believe that you're made for something, I think you have to believe also that someone is made for you as well on some level.
[00:09:34] Because I've always been the kind of person where I believed I was meant to do something like, this is it. I was meant to do this, you know, an occupation, a job, something that I needed to practice, like a. Sharpening that sword every day. I've always felt that way. And it led me to sort of entertaining, you know, And I believe other people feel that way, whether it's being a doctor or a lawyer, they just have this. This inkling that pulls them towards it, right?
[00:10:00] And since I've always been so gung ho about that, I've always made the.
[00:10:05] I made a decision, you know, very early on that, like, everything else will sort of take a back burner.
[00:10:11] You know, this. If I'm made to do this, that means that the other stuff, like finding a soulmate or finding someone that is meant for you is not in the cards.
[00:10:22] And I don't know if other people feel that way, but I'm really curious to ask and find out whether the people who've gone down that route of like, this is It. I'm giving myself to this. I can't give myself to a person.
[00:10:34] So you never find out if there ever is anybody really meant for you. I mean, if you make it in 10 years and you, you know, you run, you find someone, maybe, but if you don't and you're just pushing and pushing, or at least you start with the idea that just this is it. This is my quote, unquote soulmate. My calling is my soulmate.
[00:10:54] Are you restricting yourself?
[00:10:57] Are you keeping yourself from an experience that may be so rich, then that may be the missing ingredient to the calling that you believe you have? Or does that idea of a soulmate take away from the calling because you're not giving it fully?
[00:11:16] Because I love the feeling of love when you're connected with someone.
[00:11:22] But I guess if you believe in a calling, you have to believe that there's some sort of. Whether it's soulmate or twin flames or whatever you want to call it, that person that kind of just.
[00:11:37] I'm using the idea of like. Of a watch, like the ticking. Someone that just keeps making you tick.
[00:11:47] Because I do believe in both. But I've never. I've never looked for the soulmate. You know, I should say I've thought I've seen it, but it was never really. I was never accurate. But I always believed in the idea of the twin flame or the soulmate or the. The person that's just, like, tied to you, you know, from before this time. And this. This may sound insane, but I.
[00:12:14] I think that makes sense, you know, Makes sense that, like, I don't know all that stuff. I go, I know astrology gets a bad rep and.
[00:12:33] But maybe there's a. You know, I think there is. I do.
[00:12:40] I feel like I've seen it before, but I wonder if other people who've decided to go down the path think that this is.
[00:12:49] If there's a calling, there has to be a soul that you see also. They connect with, you know that you're meant to just. You just gravitate to that just kind of gets you, that sees you and goes, I've known you for fucking ever for this from the beginning of time. And we happen to catch each other in this. In this reality.
[00:13:08] Because it would be a shame if that was true. If it was, it would be fucking a shame to miss it, that you could have walked right by it because you were too focused on the calling, when in reality, maybe you can have both.
[00:13:23] The person that's connected to your soul is the person that's Going to push you further in the calling. Right now I sound like a fucking hippie, but, I don't know, it was something I was thinking about the other day of soulmates and the feeling of destiny.
[00:13:41] Because it's the same thing. I think, you know, all that's, that's up for speculation. Everything I, Everything I say, I mean, that's how I'm constantly thinking about things that don't have answers. And I wonder if it's a waste of time, but I know other people. There are. There have to be other people. I've met some of them that are out there and are out there and thinking about the same things.
[00:14:15] I think if you don't allow your brain to run on that treadmill, then it becomes, you know, you may have really big biceps on your brain, but your leg muscles will be just. You'll have chicken legs for your brain if you're not thinking about these things.
[00:14:28] I think if you, if you allow yourself to, to just go, no, that can't be it. No, no, this is the way it is.
[00:14:39] Then.
[00:14:41] I don't know, you're just, you're lacking, you're, you're, you're unequipped. I think to be doing to your brain is unequipped in a certain way. Like, it may have all the other things that's needed in society, but I think it's missing something.
[00:15:01] It's missing something to just kind of like, I don't know, to just not question things. It's just fucking insane to me. I see it. I see it a lot with people.
[00:15:12] They know this is God, this is it, the God created earth. And this is, you know, whatever, whatever. And that's the way it is. And like everything else, nah, there's no way that could be it. And like, how fucking closed off and dull can you be?
[00:15:27] How, how just ridiculous do you sound?
[00:15:32] You know, everyone says I'm crazy. Everyone says I sound nuts. And maybe I am on some level, but like, you just, you sound beyond insane. You sound, you sound so normal that it's, it's frightening.
[00:15:48] Too normal, you know, it's like they got you.
[00:15:53] And now I sound like a conspiracy theorist nut. But I think you just, you gotta, you gotta explore the other things and not go. That's a definite. But you go, hey, you can't rule that shit out.
[00:16:05] You can't. You can't rule out that the CIA, you know, we, everyone said who, when, when JFK was shot, the CIA had no, there's no way the government had anything to do with it you find out years later, holy shit, they did. Same thing with COVID You know, all these things where you're conspiracy nut, they're not always true, but you have to go down there and go, maybe they're seeing something I'm not.
[00:16:26] You know, to just brush everything off and call it, eh, you know, it's just a coincidence. There's no such fucking thing, I don't think at least.
[00:16:37] But yeah, I did have a fun weekend though. I had a really, really, really fun weekend. Me, I just.
[00:16:49] I drank, I hung out, I spent time.
[00:16:54] You know when you just like kind of spend time with someone and. And it's like, it just feels.
[00:17:05] I don't know, it just feels right.
[00:17:09] It just.
[00:17:11] It's the slowest, quickest day or days of your life.
[00:17:17] The day feels like it's never going to end. And then you blink and it's over.
[00:17:21] And you're just. I've spoken about this before of like when. When you're having joyous moments. You're constantly trying to catch it. You're constantly trying to keep hold of, wow. This moment, this moment. This moment.
[00:17:34] Actually, it was so cool. There was a moment on the street where I was hanging out with this person and somebody took a picture of us.
[00:17:45] And it was just, I guess like the moment. It was just something that felt like. Just looked right from afar and this person came up to us like, hey, I took a picture of you guys. It just looked really cool.
[00:17:59] And I was like, that doesn't happen.
[00:18:02] You know, I don't. I've. That doesn't happen.
[00:18:06] And it's one of those things that I. It just solidified even.
[00:18:12] Even more of like, wow, how much fun we were having that it was radiating off into somebody else. And they were able to see it. And they went. They knew instinctually to capture that moment because of how pure it was. And they needed to get it to us because they knew that we were so in it that they. They just. They were like, I'm gonna. I gotta do this for them. Like, that doesn't. That's when you know you are having an incredible experience, like just such a good experience that. That it's felt by within a mile radius of everybody.
[00:18:49] And someone needed to put it in, make it tangible.
[00:18:53] And that was like, besides me. I knew in my heart of hearts that this was a fun time, but that was something where I went, fuck. Like, I just. It just proved it even more that I knew what the fuck I was talking about. I knew what I was feeling.
[00:19:09] We knew what we were feeling that this was just pure good fucking vibes and that there's nothing. There's nothing stronger than that. I mean, you. You. Whenever you're feeling something good, whenever you get like that gut, just that present feeling, it's the best, it's the fucking best and shit. I've been riding that high for the last 24 hours now.
[00:19:37] And, yeah, I think that if you're.
[00:19:50] That's really all that. That's all there is to life. That is.
[00:19:53] It's just that, like, I kind of saw. I'm like, you know, And I've had moments like that in life where things are just. Just great fucking time.
[00:20:02] That's all this is. This. There's nothing more to this. It's like. It's that simple and it's that complex. And usually the more simple, the harder it is to understand of when you're just grounded in the moment without a care in the fucking world. And you walk away going, wow, I'm rich. I am filthy fucking rich. Because that was just. That was everything that anyone could ever ask for.
[00:20:29] And, you know, just a moment in time where two souls kind of catch each other. It's cool.
[00:20:38] And, yeah, man, everyone's chasing something, everyone's chasing after something. And sometimes the most beautiful moment is the one where you're sitting on the sofa with your wife and you just kind of have a really good laugh and.
[00:20:55] And you're too fucking dumb to realize it. You're just too. You're too human to stop and think to yourself, wow, I got it all. I got it all.
[00:21:07] I know so many people, so many people who just allow the best moments of their lives just to slide down their hip and not realize what the fuck they're experiencing because they're too busy chasing shit. They're too busy just going, no, no, no, this isn't enough. This isn't enough.
[00:21:26] When is it enough? When is. When do you have everything that you want?
[00:21:32] Maybe I don't want enough.
[00:21:34] Maybe that's my problem. But to me, I've never been more at peace in my fucking life. I've never been happier. I've never been more calm. And I've never been more understanding of just myself. And I'm not even close to getting who you understanding who I am, because I. It'll always be changing, but, God, do I feel fucking good.
[00:21:56] And when you're hanging around someone who's on the same sort of wave, you're like, okay, you get it.
[00:22:02] But so many people just.
[00:22:05] And I get it. You got to pay for your family. You got it. You got shit you got to worry about. You got things that are bothering you. But in this. In that moment when you're just hanging.
[00:22:15] The bill collector's not at your door right there, but your wife is smiling at you like she's never smiled at you before.
[00:22:23] Your kid is, you know, giggling about something that. About the ball that just fell on the floor in a funny way.
[00:22:29] And you gotta just have a second where you're like, oh, my God, that's it.
[00:22:36] That's what it's all about.
[00:22:38] This. Just that. That moment of just pure bliss.
[00:22:45] And the bad moments, too, you know, even the bad ones, the ones that are rocky, the moments where you feel like you may lose somebody, those are important too, because they kind of keep you. They keep you sharp going. All right, I gotta. They keep you open and aware to the fact of how good of a thing you have and that if you decide you want to slip up and kind of forget about those beautiful moments, then you're gonna lose them. So you gotta have some of these rocky moments. If you feel yourself slipping and you're not appreciating this person or this thing or this moment every time it comes, or every good moment that you know comes your way, then you're gonna eventually just be appreciative of it and they'll feel it. And then one day it'll be gone. And you'll go, fuck. Why didn't I.
[00:23:34] Why didn't I, you know, just. Just look at them a little longer in the morning. Why didn't I say go? You know, ask them how their day was at that, you know, that morning, or why didn't I do that more often? And even maybe, let's say they don't leave, but they die, you know, maybe they. You never see them again.
[00:23:52] And.
[00:23:53] And you sit there and you go, why didn't I just enjoy the morning coffees that I had with them every. Just a little more? Why didn't I spend two minutes longer every day with this person in silence?
[00:24:08] And maybe it's never enough. Maybe you're always going to want that extra minute, even if you did give everything you can.
[00:24:14] But they're going to be gone one day, whether they leave or they die.
[00:24:22] And appreciating a person's presence, man, I've fucked up a lot of things. I fucked up for the most part. I've been a pretty good friend. But, you know, I fucked up relationships before, and I'm from where I'm at now.
[00:24:38] I'm Glad, because it's like, yo, I'm where I'm at and where I meant to be.
[00:24:42] But you're supposed to take lessons of like, how to do it with the person that is the right person.
[00:24:47] And I just think, I think it's really important to appreciate someone that's given their energy and their time to.
[00:24:58] And understand that it's finite, you know, May end tomorrow. They may just go, I don't feel the same way about you. And that's okay, that's really okay. But at least appreciate it while you have it.
[00:25:10] Don't expect it to last forever, but appreciate the shit out of it while it's there.
[00:25:17] Because it won't be forever. Nothing is fucking forever. And I. That is like the thing I tell myself every day. And I really love it, I really do.
[00:25:26] Because it makes it that much more precious, that much more fun, and it makes me that much more on my game, you know?
[00:25:35] Same thing with success. You see a lot of famous people.
[00:25:38] Jesus, that honking.
[00:25:40] A lot of famous people, you know, De Niro, I heard him, even though he's a bit of a douchebag these days, has said he's like, you know, when things are good, stay calm. When things are bad, stay calm. Like, this too shall pass.
[00:25:53] Don't get carried away when things are really good. Because that's the thing that people don't tell you. They'll tell you, don't get carried away when things are bad because they go, ah, it's okay, it'll get better. But when things are good, really don't get carried away. Because that shit may not be there forever either. Not. Maybe it won't. It won't. You will never be on top forever.
[00:26:10] You'll never ever, you know, even if you have the best fucking, like relay back to relationship, the best relationship ever, like they could be. They could get hit by a fucking bus tomorrow, God forbid. But just enjoy, Enjoy and appreciate.
[00:26:26] And I spent my 20s, man, I said so much. Just fucking miserable, miserable hating life, hating myself.
[00:26:36] I think maybe that's what the 20s are for. I think if you don't hate yourself in your 20s, I think that's a.
[00:26:43] That's.
[00:26:45] I don't know, maybe I'm just fucking. Maybe I just had fucked up years. But I think it was beneficial. I think it's beneficial to have years of hating yourself.
[00:26:54] It's like the yin and the yang, you know, in order to appreciate yourself, you gotta hate yourself first and, and get through that.
[00:27:03] But yeah, man, good weekends, good weekends are hard to Come by when you have drinks and. And they just never tasted better. You have food and it never, it just. The drinks are ice cold and the food tastes delicious and you just, you're sitting there and you go, damn, I don't think there's anything cooler, you know, and just taking it for what it is.
[00:27:39] Beautiful moment in time.
[00:27:42] Beautiful fucking moment in time.
[00:27:50] I am.
[00:27:53] I don't know. That was kind of like mostly what I wanted to talk about.
[00:27:57] A lot of comedy stuff, I mean, and I wasn't thinking about comedy much this week. It was mostly just.
[00:28:05] Just good fucking times, man.
[00:28:11] Yeah, I think, I think maybe that's it.
[00:28:16] How long have I been going for it? 28 minutes, trying to think about if there was anything else. Oh, well, there was a mo. I had recorded another podcast, but I was high on mushrooms and I just didn't love it.
[00:28:30] But the idea, I wanted to talk about rage and time.
[00:28:35] Well, time, it's like the fact that our time is finite, right?
[00:28:41] And like you go, I could die, you know, Oh, I don't have enough time. I don't have enough time. I got to get there. I got to get there.
[00:28:47] God damn it.
[00:28:48] Fucking sirens. This is the problem with not having a fucking studio. This is. This is the problem. And this is the problem with living in Brooklyn sometimes.
[00:28:57] Where was I? The idea of time and the fact that you don't have a lot of it, but when you spend your time on this earth, you want to spend it becoming a master of something, becoming great at something, right?
[00:29:08] So then the only way to do that is by being patient and allowing it to take 10, 15, 20 years, but understanding that your time, that you're going to be dead soon. And that is such a mind to me where you go, all right, today may be it, today may be the last day. So I gotta. But I have to practice this as If I'll have 20, 30 years to do it and become better and better at it. And it's a. It's such a double edged sword of patience versus.
[00:29:41] Versus the time you have here.
[00:29:44] And you have to treat time in a very specific manner of understanding that this is.
[00:29:55] You got to be patient and understand that you will be dead soon.
[00:30:00] I just keep thinking about that and thinking about it and I guess it means spending every day as if it was your last. I guess that's what it comes down to of doing everything you can today in order to wake up tomorrow and do it and not. Not be sure that it'll even happen.
[00:30:16] And I don't know Just that idea has just been stuck in my fucking head.
[00:30:21] Just been absolutely stuck in there.
[00:30:26] And then there was something else about rage, the idea of rage and that.
[00:30:34] I'm filled with rage.
[00:30:37] I was as a kid. I still have it. It's in me. But I've able. I've been. I figured out a way to, like, tap into it.
[00:30:43] And you see, everyone has an, like, an emotion that's like a superpower. Some people are ultra sensitive. Some people are ultra intuitive. Some people are ultra filled with fucking rage.
[00:30:55] And if you're doing a creative endeavor or anything, honestly, you're trying to make a business, trying to be somebody, a lot of the times that's a huge driving factor.
[00:31:04] That. That one little thing that really. That's the emotion that they really, you know, thrive on.
[00:31:11] That's what gets you to. From, you know, A to Z, where you go, I'm gonna fucking get there.
[00:31:17] But it can destroy you if you don't know how to use it.
[00:31:21] It's like a gun.
[00:31:23] If you use it improperly, you can. It could end up killing you. But if you learn how to use it right, you're unstoppable.
[00:31:31] You're dangerous. You can get through anybody.
[00:31:35] And channeling that in a creative way is really hard because especially with entertaining somebody, you can come off as very different than how you want to. And it takes a lot of practice to allow yourself to figure out how to use this special sauce in such a way where you can get your point across, makes people connect with you and understand. They go, oh, I see. I get it.
[00:32:06] You know, what is that? And I think it's really something to ask yourself, what is that secret sauce within me where I go, what is the thing that I have that I'm filled with? Because also, you can't put your finger on the emotion always. Sometimes it takes a minute, and it's like, wait a minute. What is that thing I'm feeling? Is it rage? Is it? Is it? Is it this? Is it that? And when you figure it out and you start to water it and go, how can I use this to benefit me and use it as an asset rather than something that'll. That'll shoot me in the foot later, that's really.
[00:32:40] It's really cool if you ask me.
[00:32:43] And I've been. I've been trying to figure that out for myself. And using the rage within comedy to go, all right, this is how I can get the point across. This is funny. You know, this is the big one, huge part of me. I need to include I need to include that big part of me. I have to. How else am I supposed to be unique? How else am I supposed to be myself?
[00:33:06] Be honest. Bring it back to that, to the beginning. Be honest and connect with people on a level. And everyone. I know that there's going to be a million other people who have that feeling of rage going, oh, wow, look how we did that. And then it makes you the most peaceful you've ever been. Makes you the most grounded you ever been. You know what I'm saying? When you can figure out how to use it in the creative way, in a way that makes you better, in a way that propels you, you know, in a career, so that when you're home alone, the rage doesn't control you, you control it. And. And then you become like a still body of water. You're no longer an ocean, you're like a lake.
[00:33:46] And that's a. It's a fucking. It's a really.
[00:33:51] It's a lifetime to figure out.
[00:33:54] You know, you want to be the ocean when it comes to the. To your work, but you need to be the lake at home. And your loved ones, like, you don't want to allow rage to control your home. You know, There goes the fucking sirens again. Hopefully someone's dying.
[00:34:10] They're going to save their lives because this is just absurd.
[00:34:14] But, yeah, I don't know, man. I've just been feeling so good lately and. And I just.
[00:34:23] I can't seem to get enough of life right now. Like, I really can't. And I don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow.
[00:34:29] And I hope other people are feeling this way because I feel like I'm fucking.
[00:34:34] I'm tired. I've never been more tired, but I've never been more zeroed in in my fucking life.
[00:34:40] I just feel sharp, even though I'm exhausted.
[00:34:45] And I hope other people feel that way. And it's a fucking gift to be this tired because it means I'm still alive. And it's a gift to feel this zeroed in because it means I'm doing what I gotta be doing and I'm fulfilled. And I really just hope other people are on that same wave. I know you know, it just. And allow. Allowing the people that cross your path to touch you is just.
[00:35:06] It's fucking beautiful.
[00:35:08] So I hope everyone's feeling positive. I am feeling great. I'm gonna go do an open mic now. I'm a shower and get the fuck out of here. I don't know if any of this made sense. I have no clue, but, hey. Fuck.
[00:35:22] It's another episode of chaos and clarity. I don't know if any of it's supposed to make sense. This is just my brain just. Just spitting shit out. Just constantly going.
[00:35:34] Anyway, you guys are great. If you listen. Thank you. If you don't, thank you. Also, it ain't for you, I guess, but appreciate everyone and just. I hope everyone's killing it.
[00:35:49] All right, I'm out of here. Peace out, Sam.
